It has been a long time since my last blog post. So much has happened to me mentally over the past few weeks. I have been thinking, evaluating and trying to work out the meaning of my life. Big questions. I think this can be called a midlife crisis. For me it is a big one. On top of all this, I really fell for someone who I thought was so right for me. Unfortunately those feelings were not mutual.Trying to move on now is difficult.
I wish I knew what triggered my current mental state. It just happened one day. I am sure we all have areas we are not happy with ourselves with. The big questions in my case are:
- I do not have any children ( I did not want them, till now)
- My business is okay. It should be far better. Plus I am having doubts about the world of accountancy practice. Low returns, hard work and some demanding clients. At the same time I love not working for someone.
- I have siblings, no partner and no children. On partner front I have been on many dates, I am now really put off for the moment.
- What the hell have I been doing with my life! Why did I not think about these big questions earlier in my life!
I am finding it difficult to describe in my mental state. I do not think this blog puts it well. I do not want counselling. It does not work for me.
On the weight loss front, I am carrying on. Losing weight, putting it on and losing again. I will post a blog on this subject after my next weighin,
I think I have changed over the past few weeks. In the sense that things that were important to me before have little meaning now. Is this part of the ageing process?
Thank you Flash for your PM.
All - Will all due respect I may not respond to PMs. I apologise in advance for this.