I’m not sure if I’ve become lazy or maybe my priorities have changed. After my first burst of getting my website set up, I’ve just let everything slide again. I know after my first daughter, I enjoyed having a year off but I was ready to go back to work but on a part time basis and my career was still important to me. After my second daughter, the thought of going back to work just fills me with dread. When will I have the time to do everything?
I’ve spent 10 years being an accountant and I don’t want to throw all that hard work away, but I’m just not in a rush to go back to work and my career just doesn’t seem that important anymore. My second daughter was a lot more hard work than my first was as a baby, I don’t know if that’s why my priorities have changed or whether it’s just because I have two daughters and it is so much more hard work. Part of me wants me to accept that I won’t work properly for at least another year, so I can stop worrying about it and enjoy being a full time mum. But then there’s a part of me that feels guilty spending money because I’ve not earned it. My husband has absolutely no issues about this.
The other thing is that so much has changed since I last worked full time. Everything has gone cloud computing, there’s the new FRS 101 and 102 that I need to at least read up on, and just remembering and getting up to speed on how to do accounts and tax return. I know I haven’t forgotten everything but there are some things that you only really know if you do it in practice every day, especially on the advisory side of things. On a positive note, I’ve started doing exercise again and that is helping me feel better but then I feel like I have even less time! But while I’ve got a month trial pass, I’m going to make the most of it.
Attempting to be an amazing accountant and an amazing mum, somehow combine the two and meet somewhere in the middle but currently failing at both. Hoping that in a few years I will have found something I enjoy doing or found some sort of work life balance and will be in a less stressed out place but until then, or as I get there, I think I...