Since my oldest daughter's school is now sorted, I've been feeling like I need to do more work or more something with my life. Even though I like the idea of being a kept woman of sorts, it's not all that glamorous and it can get a bit boring. There's only so much cleaning and cooking you can do without going doolally.
Ideally, as an accountant and having trained as an accountant and having my own smallish practice, I should really focus on that. But part of me is scared.
Firstly, there are so many accountants, how am I going to get any new clients and be different. If I do get more clients, I will need to somehow cope with all that work too.
Secondly, when I did briefly go back to work, I hated doing the bookkeeping part and I don't know if there is any way to avoid that especially with MTD coming in. Maybe I might feel different once I start doing it, but what if I don't?
Thirdly, with so many changes, I have no idea if I'm still good enough to carry on. I do CPD online and keep up to date with that but if I don't work with it and I don't use it regularly, it's hard to feel proficient in anything. Should I retrain in something else and find something new to focus on? If I did retrain, I think I'd still like to have some link to accounts or tax.
For awhile I've been thinking of doing some writing, although even that requires a lot of hard work and dedication and it is a bit different to just blogging and writing whatever comes into your head. I had looked into writing just after my first daughter was born but then after my second daughter, I had put a lot of things on hold. I feel like I might have some more time to think of other things.
Finally, maybe it would be easier to get another sub-contract or attempt to do more work with the sub-contract I have which is like and accounts assistants role for a company. Or even if I could get a job locally that did part time hours. It might be nice to get out of the house and meet other people and then whinge with all the other mums at the school gate about working and doing the school run!
Anyway, in April, we will find out which school my second daughter will go to, so I don't want to get too carried away until then. After the year we've had, I'm almost scared to plan anything or even accept that my life is really good right now. But then I can't spend all my life waiting for things to happen before I make my next move.
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