When you become a parent, you find there is so much literature about parenting and none of them seem to agree. Plus there's always new research going on and so articles are always coming out on how to be a good parent.
Recently, a Harvard report stated that mums who went out to work had daughters who achieved better at work. So it's a good thing to go out to work. But I work from home, so it's that the same thing? I want to be closer to my daughters especially when you hear news of grooming, kidnapping etc I think if nothing else I want to be able to physically protect them as much as I can.
The next article that came out was in the guardian about how women shouldn't rush back to work and stay at home to look after the kids. In principle that sounds good but not everyone can afford to do this and even this makes me feel guilty. Although, I'm at home, in not always playing with them or looking after them because I'm working.
Ever since I started reading about parenting, there's apparently been this big debate about attachment parenting versus putting them in a routine. With my oldest daughter it was more routined with my youngest it became more of an attachment parenting more due to circumstances rather than anything else. They're both different but I feel guilty about the way I treated them when they were both young. Every time they misbehave I wonder if I've done something to damage them which is why they are acting the way they are.
Then I think back to my parents and grandparents and think that somehow we've all come through childhood, maybe slightly damaged but somehow we're ok. I might not have everything or be able to do everything we want but generally things are pretty good. Just need to stop worrying so much.
Attempting to be an amazing accountant and an amazing mum, somehow combine the two and meet somewhere in the middle but currently failing at both. Hoping that in a few years I will have found something I enjoy doing or found some sort of work life balance and will be in a less stressed out place but until then, or as I get there, I think I...