August 16 - Well, it's good to be back writing something here. Since 2003 I have never been absent for so long. But then, I've never had what my doctor describes as a serious illness before.
So, first of all, thanks to those who have enquired as to my well being. The update is that for reasons that aren't clear I appear to have acquired a weird virus, and it's that which laid me low. I started with shingles, but whether my reduced immune system from that then allowed this, well, who knows? The medics clearly don't, and I've sure been making them scratch their heads.
What was very clear, even during my holiday was that my energy levels were very low, and I actually went to hospital once when we were away, my wife was so worried about me.
But, the reality is that I seem to be on an upward path now, but nothing like back to full fitness as yet. No one can tell me when that might be and in the meantime I seem to be on an interesting cocktails of drugs, followed by blood tests, followed by a change in the mix and the routine goes on.
However, the one thing that has not stopped working has been my brain. I've seen AM and East although I haven't been in to work. And I've also been seeing the Chair, who is as much a friend as anything else these days.
AM had to cover by herself when East was on holiday, but from all accounts all is running OK. I'm relieved, largely because at this precise moment there's not a lot I can do about it bar offer some advice when needed, and sign things when required.
Howver, back to the brain. I've never during my adult life had so long to reflect. And candidly, I'm wondering what to do next. I've been with the company for nine years now, first as FD, then as CEO. The place has been radically transformed by me, to be honest. I never bought it, and wanted to, but right now, don't really mind. But what really bugs me, is what else can I do to the company now?
Have I given it all the ideas I can? In the current, flat, economic climate is there much else I can do? And should I recognise that I'm in my 50s, need to earn (there are children around for a long time to come yet) but might just be bored?
I've discussed this with the Chair. I'm not saying more yet. But plans may be developing for when I'm nearer back to normal.