It won't last :p
I've been snowed under at work (which is great!), especially as we now have new software to learn. This has made me cheerful as I enjoy playing with new things and I hate having downtime, so busy playing with new software = win!
I even found myself, in my detached 'able to watch myself' way, marvelling at how I wasn't letting things get to me over the weekend. To elaborate, something that falls under 'makes me almost catatonic but is in fact a non-event' is when people park outside my house, meaning I can't line up vehicles how they need to be (I in fact attach my motorbike to my car as an attempt to stop people wandering off with one or the other). This weekend I was fine with it all of a sudden, I knew it was nothing to worry about.
So began a very relaxed weekend. I had things to do, I did them. I didn't stress that while I was doing one thing I should instead be doing another (another bane of my life, for instance I have 3 P11Ds to do, all of equal importance, all came in the same day, I start one and feel I should be doing one of the others. At home I put a film on only to get a burning desire to play on my computer. So I do that, now I think I should be reading! Madness (ha, literally!)), I didn't worry about anything in fact.
Of course I then came into work and disolved into a ball of stress, what with aforementioned P11Ds to do, and tax returns, and helping with IT issues, and advising people as to complex issues of which I am never really sure, but if not me then who? But the weekend was good, and I am mostly on top of my work (sort of). I just need to focus on not stressing about me not knowing the answer to some questions I've been asked. No man is an encyclopedia, especially me, so I need to accept if I say (confidently) 'the answer is X' and they counter with 'but how can it be because Y?' that I should say, 'fair enough, you're right, I didn't appreciate that, in that case it's Z'. At the moment I am feeling 'OMG I should know this, the partner thinks less of me, all my education wasted, how am I so far into my career and I don't already know everything'.
But then what would I learn tomorrow ney?
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Oh yes it will!
Great that you had a positive weekend. Shame you went down a bit but isn't half the battle realising that your attitude (re knowing all the answers etc.) is skewed? Knowledge is power and you're in a position where you can challenge yourself when you notice those thoughts.
It's always the little things. I get worked up when my neighbour opposite (moved out yesterday!!) parks her car in front of the house (and therefore opposite the bottom of my driveway) despite having a driveway and there being a parking bay free opposite (next to my house). And yet it doesn't stop me getting my car out on the rare occasions I do go out (okay I have to take a bit more care) so it's not really an issue. Looney really. (But I really detest thoughtlessness and there seems to be so much of it about)
Bah
I knew it wouldn't last!
I've had the stress session from hell, all because I parked my pushbike somewhere and a couple of staff members said it wouldn't be there when I got back. Cue 3 hours of me fighting to resist the urge to go move it somewhere else. Amazingly I've held on till lunch, so I'm going to go move it then (not sure where though!).
But I've calmed a little now.
Fold-up bike
You need to get one of those (really lovely-looking!) fold-up bikes. Then you could park it by your desk and no more stress (well not from that anyway) :)
I'd still stress
I'd stress that I wouldn't be able to fold/unfold it ;)
A voice said unto me "Smile and be happy, for things could be worse".
So I smiled and was happy, and behold - things did get worse.