I'm really struggling and have been for a week now. It's starting to get annoying...
It all started last Monday when I was a little down anyway. My wife went off to see her sister and so I had a night to myself (first night alone in... 3 months). I tried to keep myself amused and cheerful, but I just couldn't. From then onwards everything that happened was just blown out of all proportion by my mind. I'd have a minor issue with my bike and it would then be the end of the world (with me snapping at my wife, which is the worst part). I've been the only person in my team, and there has been a mad (internally created) rush to get forms out before we change over systems, which has been a double edged sword as it meant I was busy (and busy means my mind is occupied and can't dwell on nonsense that is making me down), as well as on my own (which was fantastic, except for some mild cabin fever), though very stressful (being the only person who can do anything for 4 days was less than ideal). Every evening I would sit and ignore all the things that went well that day (and lots did, I basically ran a department on my own through a very busy time for 4 days) and focussed on everything that went wrong.
I muddled through (with some help from a forum called 'No More Panic' which is aimed at people with 'mental disorders', as I was focusing on things that were unhealthy), and managed to get to the weekend.
I was then almost Zen in my calmness, everything happened when it happened and I didn't stress over anything, until one of my animals was ill and I had to drive him to the vets at 1am as I'd convinced myself he wouldn't last the night. Even then I was a lot better than expected, I was stressed about him, but I feel some stress was inevitable in these circumstances.
Yesterday I had to sit in and wait for a builder, then literally all I could do was sit on the sofa all day while they wandered back and forth asking me questions and hammering. Not being able to go anywhere, or have the TV or a film on (because of the noise and constant interuptions) coupled with the stress it caused my animals, and not least because of the fact I had to spend a day with people I don't know. Plus it was a waste of a day, and I can't stand having to waste time on such a scale, especially as I had to use a days holiday.
Then they didn't leave till 7pm, at which time I had to clean up the house, rehouse the animals back to their usual spot (which involved rebuilding cages and runs), eating and trying to find 5 minutes to do what I wanted.
So this morning I woke up and didn't want to leave the house. I have basically had to trick myself into coming to work on false promises and blatant lies otherwise I would have just sat and watched films all day or sat with the animals. Instead, here I sit with a person who drives me insane with his constant narrating everything he does, drumming the desk, stomping his feet, having the radio on next to me (why he won't put it on his desk facing away from me is a mystery) and incessantly whining about how his children are terrible, how they act up and he wishes he never had them (which is attention seeking nonsense intended to make me engage in conversation so I can 'convince' him he loves them really, I know this from experience).
I really can't handle him right now, but have nowhere to go. This is all a bit much. As always it is my work that will suffer, making me more stressed.
/rant (or if you prefer /catharticoutburst)